Day 20 of Intuitive Doodling

Day 20 - 28 May 2014

This afternoon I sat outside and doodled. The Sun was 'deliciously' warm on my back! Mmmmm.... 

Today's doodle started off with a spiral which in the end turned into an eye. I also realised that I kept changing the layout of the page while I was doodling. And now on to the doodle! 

A 'cute' fury monster! 

When I reflected on this doodle I sensed some rebelliousness - especially present in the coloured-in background. You will notice that I coloured-in in all directions, instead of creating a smooth uniform background. I kind of felt like this was my doodle and I didn't want to be restricted in any way!! The 'cute' fury monster (which I reckon represents 'Meeko') once again has sharp teeth, and the area around his head is red - and to me these are symbols of aggression. This is quite fitting as I was feeling angry...

Today I also realised something... Meeko is a puppy. He doesn't know how to act - which behaviour is acceptable and which behaviour isn't. We need to TEACH him. It was kind of like an AHA-moment!! *...smiling with relief...*

Day 15 of Intuitive Doodling

Day 15 - 23 May 2014

My doodle for today...

While I was doing the doodle today I felt that the green was quite calming. I did however notice that my mind kept wandering, and that my thoughts were all over the place. Even though I haven't mentioned it - this week has been a difficult emotional week for me.  I don't want to elaborate too much, but I was reminded both of my "Ouma" and father - both who have passed. I have been able to deal with the passing of my "Ouma" , but am still struggling to deal with my father's passing. My dad passed away 4 years ago, but it still feels like yesterday...  

I also doodled my name: "Tracy", and I reckon it's time that I set "Tracy" free from this emotional prison ... because "I'm stuck in a moment, and I can't get out of it"... 

Day 14 of Intuitive Doodling

Day 14 - 22 May 2014

I felt slightly nostalgic and sad today, as it would've been my "Ouma" (grandmother's) birthday today... She was like a mother to me, and I miss her dearly - but I know she is looking down and smiling at me! 

I love you Ouma!! xoxoxox

On to today's doodle...

My doodle started out with a basic face and shoulder outline, and progressed from there...For some reason while I was doodling the word "Crucifiction" entered my mind, and to me - this is what this doodle represents. I'm not sure why, or how... but this is what I keep seeing when I look at it.

Day 1 of Intuitive Doodling

Day 1 - 9 May 2014

Welcome to my first day of Intuitive Doodling. I decided to take it outside. I can't remember when last I just sat on the ground... It was slightly uncomfortable, I will admit, but I guess it's just because my butt is used to the comfort of a couch *wink wink*. I just thought that if some children's classroom is on the ground in the shade of a tree - then surely I could doodle without the comfort of a table and a chair! I did however have to "fight" my puppy "Meeko" for my pen and pencils at various times during this activity ...lol... 

My outdoor "Art Studio"

Doodling with "Meeko"

 About 45 minutes later... 

My first spontaneous doodle!

Okay, so I took a moment to reflect on what I had created and this is what I realised:

I found that I was feeling a little irritated. Even though the doodle looked quite 'cute' I felt that the red and pink indicated anger. I think this doodle represented my feelings towards my puppy "Meeko". We have had him for 2 weeks now, but he has kind of thrown off my daily routine. It feels like I can't get anything done because I have to constantly watch him, as he chews everything. We are also trying to house-train him which means I have to constantly be alert to any toilet sign he makes... Some nights he wakes us up crying and wailing. Don't get me wrong - he also has his cute and lovable moments, which by far outweigh the 'narfy' times. I guess the use of blue in the doodle balances out the pinks and reds - so even though he is at times an inconvenience, I still love him to bits!

... I mean, what's not to love - right?! 

*wink wink nudge nudge*